Reality is Just a Phase; Keep Dreaming

No this isn't about Repo for once. But I do feel like the still-beating heart has been ripped from my chest. What's worse is that I think I scared him off. I don't know how, but that's the only plausible explaination I have. ARGH! This is what I get for choosing such a nice person to go on a blind date with!

Ugh, it's times like this when I wish Repo Men were real. I'd gladly have him repossess my heart and brain so that I won't have to deal with a pounding chest and constant thinking of him.

It's been ages since I've posted, but I'm back now. I've been very busy these last few months with a little something called Repo! The Genetic Opera, the best movie since Suicide Club. More specifically, I've been involved in the SoCal Repo Army and Addicted To The Knife-or ATTacK for short-which is a group that shadowcasts Repo! once a month in L.A. at the Laemmle Sunset 5. Joining the SoCal Repo Army was just the beginning. I've met so many wonderful people because of the SoCal Army: Carolyn, Melissa, Tara, Lotte, Treasure, Dani and Dani, Amanda, Kylee, Falen, Ken, Zach, Bernie, Jennie, and Ana, just to name a few. And when it came to perform...well, I was honored to perform alongside them as a cast member. Did I know what I was signing up for? Yes. Was I aware that we would not be getting paid for doing this? Yes. Did I care? No. And did I, Sharon, ever dream a few years ago that I would now be a part of something this huge? No. And I definately don't regret it.

Including our guerilla performance(our test performance), we have performed 3 times now, and each performance is memorable. I have been a GENtern, wearing only a short white dress while fawning over a narcissistic womanizer, but also a white two-piece bikini style outfit while prancing down the isles and dancing. I have been a SurGEN, replacing the face of the narcissistic womanizer while singing. I have been a dead body, flopping across the seat of an audience member as GraveRobber extracts Zydrate from a corpse. I have been a ghostly portrait of Nathan's wife Marni, tormenting Nathan as he laments his double life as Repo Man. And I have been a Scalpel Slut, gathering in the alley with the others around GraveRobber and awaiting my turn to get a hit of Zydrate. Though my parts may not be huge, I still love being a part of ATTacK and performing alongside my cast members. And I hope to stay with these wonderful people for a long while. For those of you who haven't seen us, I hope one day you will come. It's well worth it.

so i just found out today that one of my best friends dropped out of school. now, if he and i hung out together regularly, this wouldn't matter. well, it would, but not as much. but since we normally don't hang out together outside of school, this could potentially mean that i will never see him again. and that thought depresses me to no end.

okay, so i was bored and i decided to search Wikipedia. however, when i got to the main page, i found THE stupidest article ever, titled "Religious Debates Over Harry Potter." i'm not kidding. now, don't get me wrong, i don't have a problem against religious people. but when they start attacking THE BEST BOOK/MOVIE SERIES EVER CREATED and trying to look for reasons why it's evil, i wonder about their sanity. there have actually been LAWSUITS over this, all because the religious mommies and daddies are afraid that the little kiddies are going to learn witchcraft, Wicca, Satanism, etc. from reading Harry Potter. my answer to such deluded people: "honestly, people, it's a FANTASY book. FANTASY! do you know what the word FANTASY means? it means NOT REAL!" of course it's gonna have magic, witches, wizards, etc. in it. what fantasy book DOESN'T have any or all of them in it? the people who have condemned the best book and movie series on Earth because of this should really rethink their priorities.

as for me, any one who knows me very well should know that i practically worship the series.

Major cleaning to do today. i'll be cleaning my entire room, which, i'm sad to admit, is sorta messy. well, i'd still put off cleaning it, but then the unimaginable happened: my dad made me an offer i simply couldn't refuse. he told me that he would move his computer to my room once it's clean. so, with my own computer as my incentive...well, you can see why i couldn't refuse, right? so now, i'm off to clean!

Yeah, i know i was supposed to write about this sooner, but i was so busy. so friday the 23rd was my and James's 2 1/2 year anniversary, and we spent it by buying each other gifts because it also happened to be Black Friday. I bought him a game(Jam Session), a Dane Cook CD, and the King Kong movie. He bought me a new watch, the Ratatouille movie, and Final Fantasy III. if we had more money though, i think we would have bought more stuff.

Sunday was  Dot's birthday, so she and her family invited me to go out to dinner at Sammy's with them. god, the food was good. and her birthday cake was delicious.

well, there's a fire here in San Diego. actually, there's like 8 fires. but i'm guessing a lot of people know that already. this really sucks cuz i can't go to school. this is very bad, because i don't wanna miss school. i like this school!

yes, you guys read correctly. i like my school. why? because i am finally fulfilling my dream of becoming a chef by attending that school. i really hope it's okay to start travelling soon.

does anyone know where to buy the original Les Miserables musical???

well, i'm back again. i just gave my LJ a new makeover. and it's obvious to see what my new obsession is. yup, that's right! i'm a Phoenix Wright fan now. now, what do i write about...?

for starters, i'm seriously considering attending the Art Institute of California in San Diego for their culinary program, cuz i think i've found my calling in life and that's cooking. so i'm really pleased with that decision. the real bummer is that the tuition is major expensive so i'm gonna seriously need financial aid to get me through this.

i'm still trying to save up to move out with James, which still isn't making much progress, but with the hours i've been working, i think i'll be able to scrape up a good few hundred dollars.

i haven't updated in forever. what's there to say, anyway? hmmm. well things with James are going really well. we're not fighting so much anymore. so that's good. i got my hair cut today too. it now reaches roughly around the top of my neck. and i also got brown and red highlights. not auburn red. more like Ariel red. as in Ariel from Little Mermaid. yeah, that kind of red. i love it!

now for a more gloomy tone...i think my friends and i are starting to drift apart. no, who am i kidding? i KNOW we're drifting apart. i haven't had a proper day/night out with ANY of my friends for months. i try to talk to them, but they never get back to me. if they ever do, we don't really have much to talk about. of course, i know everyone's been busy, but i really can't believe they'd be too busy to talk even just a little. *sigh* maybe i, too, should just move on...

*sigh* god, i feel so emo right now...

less than a month away! and i have no idea what to do! but i do have my wish list! please do not be alarmed at the length of the list, i'm not asking for all of them!!

Movies
-Any film directed by Takashi Miike(except for Ichi the Killer)
-Any Asian horror film

Clothing/accessory Items
-pleated skirts
-white blouses
-Asian style tops
-loose socks
-arm warmers
-leg warmers
-anything from Victoria's Secret or Frederick's

Asian Household Items
-sake or tea set
-bento box
-small plastic lunchbox
-rice bowl and chopsticks set

Anime/Video Game/Manga related items
-Ouran High School Host Club Vol. 2 or Vol. 8
-Ouran High School Host Club patch
-Selphie Final Fantasy VIII Play-Arts figure
-Rinoa Final Fantasy VIII Play-Arts figure
-Squall's Griever necklace
-Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon Special Act 50
-Scrapped Princess vol. 2(anime)

i never thought it would be possible, but...i hated the Christmas season this year. and it isn't even over yet! really, the only good things that happened so far were doing a gift exchange today and hanging out with Claire two days ago. and i think all of you know where this is going and are probably shaking your heads in disgust right now. if you're doing that, then i don't blame you. i'm disgusted with myself too. WHY CAN'T I GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD??? not that i want to, but a few moments without his face continuously looming in my mind would be nice. that way, i won't have to think about the obvious that I'm alone on Christmas. NO ONE should feel this alone on Christmas. i know i have my family and friends, and i'm grateful for that, but it feels like a huge chunk of myself is missing.

i got my hair cut today. i'll post pictures of it tomorrow, along with my new glasses. the end.

oh, god, i could not get out of bed yesterday. my whole body felt all limp and heavy. of course, i should have realized that i was getting sick on monday because i nearly walked into a mailbox. anyways, i could not sleep Monday night. i literally stayed up the whole night trying to get to sleep. and of course, yesterday, i spent the whole day in bed. i didn't even eat anything, my appetite completely disappeared on me. it wasn't until last night did really begin to feel sleepy. i'm a bit better today, but not enough to go back to school.

okay, my Thanksgiving was pretty normal. we did all the normal things like cooking, cooking, and more cooking. i made my famous potato-leek soup again this year. hey, what can i say? everyone loves it. my relatives joked how they always have to wait till Thanksgiving to eat the soup. but i really have to come up with something different for next year. anyways, during dinner, i had apple cider and wine afterwards. i think i like white wine better. oh, god, i had a hangover the next morning. but at least it wasn't as bad because i drank a ton of water before sleeping.

anyways, on Black Friday, i met up with James and he and i went shopping at the Plaza Camino Real. we bought stuff at Victoria's Secret, Suncoast, F.Y.E., and Frederick's. most of the stuff we bought were from Frederick's. James went and bought me the movie "Hook" on DVD, which i'd been dying to get. it was so sweet of him. i spent, maybe about $60 to $80 on stuff on Friday.

yesterday, however, was when i spent way more. i went to Mission Valley and met up with James again. this time around, we did practically ALL our shopping at Frederick's. we just kept coming back again, resulting in a total of three shopping bags from Frederick's with various bedroom clothing, plus a small Victoria's Secret bag with some shimmer lip gloss, and Fushigi Yuugi Genbu Kaiden volume 5 from Suncoast. jeez, i really killed my wallet these two days. and now, it's official. Frederick's is my favorite store now. hey, i guess i better admit it now. i can't be sweet and innocent all the time now, can i?

okay, considering that so much crap has happened to me for the past two weeks, i now magically have my movtivation to cosplay again. it's a MIRACLE!!! the break-up with James wasn't really a break-up at all, more rather we are taking a break from each other for the time being to sort out our lives. he and i still remain close friends, so i'm very happy about that indeed!

anyways, with my motivation back, here is a list of costumes i want to make for next year, in no particular order. well, maybe the first two.

Mew Zakuro from Tokyo Mew Mew
Mew Lettuce from Tokyo Mew Mew
Pacifica Casull from Scrapped Princess
Zefiris from Scrapped Princess
Cz from Scrapped Princess
Ayumi Hamasaki's dress from Ladies Night
Kuroki Mio from PGSM
Koda Kumi's outfit from Shake It(dare i do this one?)

the list may grow or shrink depending on how much time and money i have, but it's a start!

lately, i've been going through a lot of stress. my grandma recently came home from the hospital after falling and hitting her head. what little motivation i had left of school and cosplay pretty much went out the window. i'm always tired all the time, and i can barely sleep at night. and work? i have almost no energy for that, what with everything happening so fast in my life. i just wish i could get away from it all, but...i don't know where to get away to. they say that when you have nowhere to escape to, that's when the trouble starts, because that's how the problems start spiralling out of control. and right now, i have no desire to let my problems get that bad. so i'm looking for some advice, guys. how do you deal when times get rough?

on a more happier note, i have a new cell phone number! so, if anyone wants it, IM me or something.

what a satisfying weekend! yesterday, i went over to Claire's house and we took the bus all the way to Balboa Park. there, we began our photoshoot. we took our pictures first at the fountain in front of the Ruben H. Fleet Science Center and got about five pictures each. then we wandered over to Zoro Garden, which we call the "Un-Named Clearing," and increased our quota to ten pictures each. damn, that location was probably the best. after that, we wandered to the Japanese Tea Pavilion for a short lunch break. i must say, they do serve some pretty good food there. anyways, from there on, we went to the Organ Pavillion, where we increased our quota yet again to 30+ photos each. i'd say that the Organ Pavilion is the second best location for pictures. when we were done taking pictures, we changed into more comfortable clothes, and we went to the Science Center. THAT PLACE WAS SO FREAKIN' AWESOME!!! at the Science Center, we went on a simulation ride, which gave us both headaches. when the ride was finished, we checked out more stuff at the Science Center and then we decided to call it a day and we left. on the way back to Claire's house, we ate at the Seafood Restaurant. i hadn't eaten there in ages, so it was good. then we went back to her house, where we watched movies and stuff, until we got tired.

anyways, here are some of the pics from the photoshoot:

okay, so me and blue_sorceress will be having a photoshoot in Balboa Park on Saturday. i am looking forward to it greatly, because i haven't seen her in awhile and i haven't been to Balboa since last February. then we'll be having a sleepover at her house. yay! this will definately take some things off my mind for awhile.